Day 157

New furniture arrangement is working fine. They orchids are definitely getting more light and I have plenty of room at the computer. Yesterday after church I had political discussions and then came home feeling restless. I wished that I had gone to the museum barbecue. I just didn’t feel social but was lonely. Hmm. After a couple walks and a Giants game, I settled down to being alone. Had lots of vegs for dinner. Later a Dem meeting for planning our barbecue. 

Day 156

I’ll go to church this morning. I missed two weeks and will miss next week as I will be working in the Dem booth at the fair. I want to support our tiny congregation. I’m working my way up out of this low spot. The peaks and valleys of energy and motivation seem to be more frequent lately. Mindfulness helps me notice. Today I will change this room so the orchids can get more light. I want them to grow colorful spikes.

Day 155

Did score blueberries and shared a pound with Cherie. She is my favorite at the senior center. Love her attitude and warm personality. I connected with Chris, the attorney taking Gene’s practice, and will take her my will and other papers. The rest of the day slipped by with a couple of walks and a Giants game. I did open the paper journal and find the last entry from mid June. I took out a new journal to start on August first.

Day 154

Open Friday. First the routine and then look for a new activity or connection. I will call the blueberry farm and hope to grab a couple of pounds for the freezer. There is always yard work and house stuff. Could find another spot to purge. The Hoosier cabinet is full of unused art material that could be redirected. The closets are still an issue for me as I’m having trouble letting go of clothes that are never worn but I love them

Jake saves things too,

Day 153

Better morning. Not dragging. Yesterday was okay. Nothing to put a star by on the calendar. Hope for a day of connections and conversation at the senior center or anywhere else. I’m feeling the need to find a new place for volunteering or socializing. Guess I’m unstimulated and that leads to boredom. Wish my writing muse would come back at least to the paper journal. I haven’t entered anything for months. No new thoughts or old thoughts either. No color or fun.

Day 152

Slept well. I hope I’m over the deep fatigue that has dragged me along for a few days. Working Mouse remotely updated my security on this computer yesterday. The Malware is off and I know she will fix it. I like to keep my machine clean and safe. Today is museum duty. Last week was interesting with the young people doing research. I enjoy sharing our community with visitors and locals. It keeps me learning. Plenty of house dusting could happen too.

Day 151

Orchids are soaking. Exercise mat is down. Stretches are done. I’ll get a walk before the long sit at the board meeting. I had a restless night and thankfully coffee has booted my brain into working order. I get night worries and concentrate on breathing. Works sometimes. Old stuff emerges and unfinished business bothers me. Guess that is age-related too. I don’t remember having nights where I dredge up long ago mistakes or poor decisions. I have more fun experiences for counter-examples.

Day 150

Kelle is going home today. Back to my routine and grateful for it. The older I get, the more I like things my way. Today I’ll get watering done. The sun is warm in the afternoon and I like being outside weeding and enjoying the yard. I may call the blueberry farm and see if there are any left by the time I get through with the senior center duty. I want berries in the freezer and it is a short season. 

Day 149

We all went to Freddy’s after the market. Megan found a dress, shoes, and a purse. She scored on Grandma again. I had a conversation with another G’Ma and we decided we were doing our jobs of spoiling the grand generation! I did get a sturdy pair of walking shoes and a bright shirt, Kelle found a bunch of stuff and Hollie refrained for buying anything. Then off to Chan’s for our favorite Szechwan chow Mein. Lots of laughing and good feelings.

Day 148

We will walk to the farmers’ market with Hollie and Megan. I want fruit again. The plums were juicy and delicious and the peaches also. Maybe blueberries will be ready. The produce is slow this year. Kelle and I may go to Freddy’s after that. She likes to shop there and I can always find something to look at, maybe a pair of walking shoes or a new shirt. Her visit is short this year so we want to do fun things.

Day 147

The dogs get their hair and nails done this morning. Kelle gets a massage. I’ll do grocery shopping. Sun is shining and the agenda is open for the day. I enjoyed the interview with the kids at the museum. I felt that I was instructive and supportive of their project. Paul asked if I would do a history segment on his radio station but Karen seemed less than enthused. Don’t know their history together. I do enjoy telling stories about our community. 

Day 146

The museum was full of visitors and was busy. A bunch of high school kids came to write a history of Beachfront Park and I helped them with columns from the Triplicate that I wrote years ago. Today I will join the kids after senior center duty as they want to interview me for their project. Then Karen, ahhh. Later today Kelle will arrive on the Point bus followed by dinner at Good Harvest. There was warm sun yesterday. That’s another ahhh!

Day 145

Museum today. Max is on a cruise so Donita will partner today. I hope it’s busy like last week. Lots more interesting with visitors. Later I’ll see Karen for massage. Always a pleasure to see her and her magic fingers. I made a couple mistakes yesterday. Need to ramp up mindfulness. I am keeping track of times that I mess up. Might be signs of things to come or merely mistakes anyone could make. I filled the green bin yesterday. Weeds beware.

Day 144

No sod. We bought seeds. A new lawn will be difficult with dogs running through it. Joel is a good worker. Rocks will move to the north fence line. Little by little a new look will come. I’ll start the day as usual plus immersion for the orchids. Eileen mentioned they needed more light. I may have Kelle help me move things and put them in the south window. I’m in a purging mood again. Look out stuff. I’m on the move.

Day 143

The headache took away the fun and the Giants lost again. Nothing happened except naps and munching on berries and fruit. Today after senior center duty, Joel and I are going to measure the new space he cleared and get sod rolls. The rocks are retreating slowly and grass is replacing them. Hope the painter calls. He promised two weeks ago. Ky can’t start on the pergola until the painting is finished. It is taking ages to get the smallest chores done.

Day 142

Slow start for Sunday. Woke up with a headache. Haven’t had a migraine in four months. The incidence has decreased since Dr. Getty recommended acidophilus and yogurt daily for my immune response. I walked to the store hoping to wear it out but it is bothering me. Today I have no agenda so I can relax and enjoy another gloomy summer day. Hollie brought a flat of blueberries. Everything is late due to the long winter and no spring and no summer.

Day 141

Yesterday’s “simple” name change turned out complicated and was solved with help from a friend. After chasing the elusive medallion signatory, I found out I didn’t need one. Only needed to sign my name. That chore is done. What can I clean up today? Kelle will be here next week for a few days and I’ll have her tackle the hutch with me. It’s full of unused art and paper items. Hollie and I’ll go to the farmers’ market. Megan is camping.

Day 140

Yesterday’s errands were done. I like moving unused stuff to where it might have another life. Today I have shopping to take care of early plus slicking up the living room. Kevin is coming to talk about money and how my accounts are doing. I want to change them into Megan’s name and it’s not as easy as I thought it would be to change ownership. I am tidying up my business and feeling the urge to purge unused stuff. All good.

Day 139

Yesterday Hollie picked me up at the busy museum and we used my gift certificate for lunch at Fisherman’s restaurant. I’m glad it was free because the food was awful and I will never go there again. She had a shrimp louie and it was okay. We walked around the harbor and enjoyed being out together. Today is senior center duty with errands afterward: dog food, new shoes, and take the grow light to the hydroponics store. Maybe someone can use it.

Day 138

Tuesday was a good one: interesting meeting, two walks, visits with Ivan and Julia too. I’m thinking about working at the PD again. It would mean moving the schedule around and then what if I don’t want to stay. It’s not my way to dither and I admit to feeling wishy-washy. A sign to do nothing for now. It’s that confidence leak again. I like to be sure that when I say I’ll do something it is possible for me to accomplish.

Day 137

BOS this morning and that’s all the agenda. I’ll start out the usual way, add a walk to the store, and the orchids will get an immersion. Yesterday was full and lots of conversations with interesting people. There is so much to learn about the political side that I’m participating in. I gave information to the committee and felt that I had contributed. It’s all about mindfulness. There are times when I don’t get the whole message and I want more attention.

Day 136

Routine start followed by senior center duty and later, Dem meeting. Busy week ahead and I’m ready for it. I like to be involved and out with people. I’m enjoying the fruits and vegetables from the farmers’ market. It was a treat to find apricots, plums, and peaches. Soon we’ll have blueberries. Everything is late because of the long dark wet winter, no spring,  and now a gloomy summer. It’s better than hot temperatures. Might sweep the floors before I go out. 

Day 135

I will go to church even though it’s morning prayer and not my reason for attending. It’s communion that connects me. I’m nearly finished with the last Harry Potter book and I’m rationing it. Still surprised that is has held my interest. The names are part of cultural literacy now. That’s what started my reading. I don’t need to accomplish anything today. Could clean the spare bedroom for Kelle’s visit or find another pile of stuff to get rid of or nothing.

Day 134

I had a good Friday: all errands and shopping completed early and the green bin filled. I took the old tax stuff to paper shredding service and it felt good to see it go off to China to be made into toilet paper! Today is my favorite time with Megan and Hollie at the farmers’ market. It’s a treat to do things together. We are so fortunate to be close in heart and area. I am blessed and grateful for my life.

Day 133

The I Ching called my current state an Eclipse. When Eileen read the advice it made sense. I’ll wait it out until the corona breaks free. Meanwhile, slow and cautious interactions and time alone and in silence. Today is errands and shopping early and a day in the yard. I will sort the old tax records and get rid of any before 2009.   I did the Dem calling yesterday and it took an hour. Mostly I talked to voice mail and machines.

Day 132

It was a good day. After the massage Karen came to visit followed by Ky promising to come this morning to do the new door installation in Megan’s house., Today is senior center duty plus Eileen is coming later to give me an I Ching reading. I am looking forward to her oracle giving me advice. I will start the calling list for the Dem meeting on Monday. I offered to do this so I can get acquainted with the other members.

Day 131

It was a day full of people and noise and I enjoyed it. Megan took over my coffee duties and when I came back from walking with the Dems, she didn’t want to give up the place. She stayed with it and had a good time. The night display was colored fog but the booming carries. Minnie did okay as long as she was under my arm in bed. Today is museum duty and a massage with Sarah. Back to normal activities

Day 130

Clear weather for the Fourth of July. The pie/ice cream social is at the museum where I will pour coffee and also walk with the Democrats in the parade. It will be a fun day full of people and noise. I will make the house as comfortable as possible for the dogs as they are frightened by the noise. I don’t know about Jake yet. When the fireworks go off, I will be home holding Minnie while she shivers and drools.

Day 129

Highlight yesterday – Megan is pregnant. Egads. She has known Joel for a month and they are planning a family. It’s a new world. Today is senior center duty and that’s all the agenda. It’s gray and cool again typical of the coast when the valley is sizzling. My energy is up a bit. Lead shoes traded in for clunky boots. Maybe I’ll get my dancing shoes back soon. Maybe words will come back too. I want to make sense of my feelings.

Day 128

Church today. Father David will be there. Then I will hope to have garden energy. I want to finish moving rocks into the artichoke patch. I’ll have to stay away from Harry Potter in order to do anything else. Who would have guessed that I would get so involved in reading. My eyes work well for about half hour at a time. This gray cold morning will start with the routine plus a trip to the store for bananas. I want more.

Day 127

Farmers’ Market day with Hollie and Megan. I love our Saturday trip together. I’m still not feeling okay with the lack of physical energy and blah mental attitude. It’s time to move on from the week of messes and misses. It happened and now it’s history. I want to go through old journals today and get the bins of tax papers off the top of the sauna. Must find a shredding facility as it’s not safe to put them in the recycling.